A path emerges,
step by step.
Each rock fallen into perfect space.
Flowers bloom with the scent of
danger, love, delicate promises, on the tip of their lips.
Trickling water laps over the stones;
as hard surfaces give way to smoothness
The Sun’s rays split emerald canopies, offering rainbows in water drops.
Down this path…
Wounds, sorrow, and guilt,
shed as the beauty and harmony of mother earth demands your agony abandoned at her doorstep.
Heavy baggage burns in the fire of purification.
A scorching flame found within the heart.
Blazing naked, one arrives to the edge.
Gazing out into passionate expansiveness, a point of suspension.
The limitless feeling, the void, and adrenaline all mingled into an expression of
WHAT IF ‘I’ DOES NOT EXIST?
Every year since 2013 a team of us create a space at PEX Summer Festival where divinity, openness, love, and beauty co-exist. In the past years our altars were dedications to the 4 elements, nature, and dream catchers using handmade art, art from the Smithsonian, crystals, deities, rugs, and elements foraged on the land. In this space there is yoga, healing, acupuncture, massage, lectures on herbs, sound healing, kirtan, and late night impromptu ceremonies. This year the space was dedicated to the divine/sacred masculine a topic near and dear to my heart. There are so many directions a topic of divine masculine and feminine can branch into and my main purpose and focus of the space is to create the opening of discussion on the importance of the masculine energy and how to honor, raise the acceptance, and remove the word balance of the feminine and masculine as the main topic and turn it into acceptance of the masculine. How do all of us as humans harness the true power of the masculine energy for the betterment of human kind? Do we really understand the masculine?
Obviously I am not a man, I am a woman who takes pleasure in being surrounded by beautiful men. There is an abundance of wonderful men in this world and I am not sure they always get the credit they deserve nor do the women who harness and use the masculine energy. I grew up feeling closer to men and thinking I was not feminine but some how more of a man. I think this is due to being raised by a tomboy mother, enjoying playing outdoors more than most girls my age, and the fact that I always was really quiet when in a group of girls due to being attacked or made fun by girls for my ideas and preferred honest interactions. My father made sure I knew how to work on cars and enrolled me in martial arts at a young age to learn how to fight. Everything my parents bought me that could be handed down to my brother was bought with the intention of a boy in mind so there was no pink, purple, or many dolls. I played sports with my brother, pushed him around in a box as if it was a race car, and spent most of my time out in the woods alone. I know my story isn’t unique and there are many women out there who relate to this idea of being more masculine than what culturally is accepted as being feminine. If I feel this way isn’t there men who in turn feel the same about existing in our cultural ideology of masculinity? Is this why I relate to the concept of being a man? Wandering around waiting to find my home within the sex of my body? Is this a phenomenon that some human beings experience at some point in their life? A missing piece to feeling whole, like one belongs, and connected to something greater than yourself.
There are discussions of a human cultural identity crisis in the United States, too much patriarchal control. This is not only a hindrance to the growth of the goddess power but to the god power of men. I am not here to way in on if it is bad or good because these days I have a hard time seeing differences. The main point is to start the dialogue, to open the floodgates and allow the masculine to be held up in a positive esteem.
Two of the divine aspects of the masculine energy is giving and supporting. This is viewed sometimes as a feminine trait but is agreed upon in divinity to be a masculine trait. There are many of us that tap into giving and supporting others and not ourselves. There is also this idea of not being able to receive what is given freely. and feminine energy is to receive. I notice that the more I learn how to receive (tap into the feminine) without expecting to give anything in return, I am able to give more freely because I understand what it means to receive a gift given without expectation.
To quote Khalil Gibran of The Prophet, “See first that you yourself deserve to be a giver, and an instrument of giving. For in truth it is life that gives unto life – while you, who deem yourself a giver, are but a witness. And you receivers – and you are ALL receivers – assume no weight of gratitude, lest you lay a yoke upon yourself and upon him who gives. Rather rise together with the giver on his gifts as on wings; For to be overmindful of your debt is to doubt his generosity who has the free-hearted earth for mother, and God for father.”
As I watch beautiful women rise into their Goddess nature, and realize their true purpose, power, I want us women to remember to hold space for the divine masculine to step into their power. I think it is important to make sure as women during our evolution and returning to roots that we bring the men with us, because they are your sons, brothers, fathers, friends, and lovers. We are all human and desire support, love, opportunities to release, and even more opportunities to be part of something bigger and greater.
Therefore I urge everyone to look at their definition of the masculine. Where is the wounded man appearing in your existence of relation with the world? Are you honoring the masculine energy within yourself, your friends, and family? Are you open to the idea of the raw wild energy that comes with being a human? Can you see there is really no difference in the masculine and feminine and creating acceptance of others stems from accepting the wild free self within you, respect for the way others walk in the world and the way they identify themselves?
Check out the space created for the divine masculine at PEX Summer Festival 2015. Thank you to my team, Dean Hively, Philly Baker, Alex Emmerman, and John. I am nothing without your help and the visions I see do not happen without you!
Abandoning the body to the music,
Circle, circle, circle.
Round and round until the heart beats to the rhythm of divine spirit.
Raw from pain, letting go, and moving in directions unknown.
Passionate delivery of the psyche.
Deep into your love, I am drowning, I can’t breathe.
Video of me hooping to my fave song by King Britt & Ursula Rucker circa 2013.
Wow! I am still decompressing, more like integrating, from the amazing 2015 Freeform weekend. The organizers rocked it this year and really put on one of the best events. I am so happy to camp with Spirit House and Tea for the second year in a row. Spirit House brings a chill space for participants, serves daily tea ceremonies, and provides a safe space for those who are alone, want to snuggle, or need a listening ear. I was blessed to spend time hosting a tea ceremony on the topic of Aparigraha, a yama observed in the yogic tradition on the concept of non-attachment/non-hoarding, taught a class on Herbal Alchemy & Creativity , and taught Plant Spirit Yoga on the herbal plant of Rose. These are all topics I plan on creating into blog posts one day.
The most epic of my time at Freeform this year was creating a mandala called Conjuring Nature’s Play. The Creative Team of Alex Emmerman, my right hand man, and Todd Watkins, foraged and mastermind the idea of how to bring more awareness to the nature on the site. We want participants of festivals to spend more time in the bush looking around, communing, and paying attention to the cycles of nature. I find the more I play with nature the more I understand myself, the world, and my purpose. I wanted to give this gift to others through art.
Below is the description and a slide show of the photos taken by Cinnamon and myself 🙂
Playing with Nature every day
The mandala is a spiritual and ritual symbol used in all cultures, religions, and within nature. Conjuring Natures Play mandala asks you the participant to play, reflect, let go and add freshly foraged materials from nature or those provided to the mandala. The purpose is to bring awareness to the role of nature in healing, play, joy, and creating a unified image of the beautiful community.
Whoa! Sometimes I look at my life and wonder…how did I get so blessed? I try not to spend too much time doubting why and more time on giving thanks for the opportunities, adventures, and love I receive.
Today strapped with my bestie Philly we headed to Baltimore to give out infinite love during the St. Paddy’s Parade. Thank you to Johnny and Sarah of Proper Playground for always creating events that make the world a better place. This work is so aligned with all that I view to be important in the world.
NEXT INSTALLATION OF I AM LOVE PROJECT IS ON APRIL 12th in DC 🙂 Contact me if you want to be apart of the movement in any city.
Jeremy Opio made this beautiful video of the day on YouTube 🙂
The following are images from the day from Theresa and Larry of TLC Baltimore:
Deep gratitude for Mad Momo’s for hosting the Dance A Fire shows showcasing amazing fire performance talent in DC. This is a dream and blessing to perform within my home city, DC. Joy is radiating from my heart from the friends that came out to support.
I danced to the following three songs:
Hypnotize – Notorious B.I.G (17th year anniversary of his death) — Fire Hoop
Smokey Taboo- Coco Rosie — Fire Fans
Talk Dirty (feat. 2 Chainz) – Jason Derulo — Fire Hoop
You can check out the Spotify play list here.
Here are photos from the great Devon Rowland Photography