by April Rameé | May 6, 2018 | Antler Alchemy, Herbs, Poetry
That moment, the moment I heard the message. A whisper in my ear during meditation, a cultivated garden is harder to grow than a wild one. It clicked. My heart knew a truth I carry.
Cultivating a garden here in DC for the past 6 years is a joy and challenge. I wonder on all the reasons to do this work and why am I even dedicated to growing plants in DC. The desire of growing the garden one way and then watching how the garden decides to grow stimulates a longing to observe and learn from the land. There are the areas of the garden that need focus, demand more attention, and consistency and then there are areas that want to be left alone. I sit observing where water goes naturally and how the microclimates of the garden exist. Creating a bond with the land.
I plant the garden with care but also a sense of abandon because I never know if a plant will actually want to live there in my garden. Therefore, I plant with a sense of detachment to the outcome of the plants choice.
There is so much joy when I notice something I planted actually comes up after a year or so laying dormant — as if a period of gestation had to occur and it rises in perfect time.
Eternal Moment
by: Jan Bettes
The similes of growing a garden and my life are not lost on me. I think of the seeds I planted in the garden as a metaphor for my dreams planted. The gestation period that gives rise and fall to dreams coming to fruition. Each having their own rhythm of time, that if I observe with objectivity, I see the path before me clear on how my arrival to the present moment is based upon decisions I made up until this point. The moment of arrival blooms when all the right environmental factors exist to create birth.
And then I see it, a new plant in my garden!
Hello dear friend, I have been waiting for you to appear, I am so blessed to get to know you and understand your arrival. Whispered from my lips to the plant.
I see the soil is disturbed enough so a wild thing like me can grow now. I’ve been waiting to see this side of the garden. Interested in learning from me? The seedling replies.
Evening Primrose Seedlings
Photo by: April Rameé
A sense of how there is still a wild in the garden causes me to laugh with delight, while my own heart opens to the wild woman within — A metaphor of the ever-growing capabilities of a cultivated garden to contain wild surprises.
I am in life to discover– that wild.
See, for countless ages people have written about their garden as a representation of their body, soul, spirit, essence, and there is a reason why.
A cultivated garden does contain a certain wildness as things once forgotten appear. A sense of wild contained in the proper alignment. The element of surprise creates a sense of excitement ensuing that the reins of control can be relinquished.
I relate all these thoughts to my wild heart. The part of me that yearns to travel, discover the unknown portion of the world that has yet to be discovered by her. This wild lives inside the cultivated garden of myself in DC. A place I love and a city I cherish for the amazing people of the world I meet. The melting pot of existence in DC proves to me the harmony that can exist in the rest of the world, within my garden, and within my life. All types of species living side by side sharing the natural rhythm of the Earth. I am here to see this radiated out into the world. Not the politics, not economics, THE HEART. The heart of people who agree to accept the difference of all. I believe in us all. Big up to the wild within you.
I am ready to learn from Evening primrose (Oenothera biennis), the flower of silent love—A plant blooming at dusk into evening offering sweet messages as the sun goes down.
Pliny said, “it is an herb good as wine to make the heart merry… Of such virtue is this herb that if it be given to drink to the wildest beast that is, it will tame the same and make it gentle.”
Bring in the gentle nature to my wild heart within DC.
In the language of flowers evening primrose symbolized silent love. The flower essence is recommended for people who suffer from feeling rejected or unwanted. Such people tend to avoid close emotional contact, intimacy, and committed relationships. Evening Primrose can heal the feelings of rejection and being unlovable and enables one to be more open emotionally and to form deeper relationships.
Traditionally evening primrose was valued as an edible wild plant. The seeds were used as food by the Native Americans in Utah and Nevada and young leaves were enjoyed in salads. As a biennial in the first year it grows a fleshy root which was boiled as a nutty-tasting vegetable
I leave now with a poem that was inspired by this plant growing wild in my garden and movement through ecstatic dance in my hometown DC:
There is a place and a time where we are one.
Souls united.
Free to express, wild….
We lay as lions in a pride,
Blissful under the sun.
An ocean in the distance laps waves
of salty moist air in our direction.
There is a place and time where we are one.
Connected in passion.
Blooming as an orchid,
Suspended in the air.
Tangled roots knotted in tantric touch.
There is a place and time where we are one.
Living the expression of memories.
I miss you in this space
Haunted by your ghost in the flesh.
There is a place and time.
But not here.
by April Rameé | Feb 15, 2018 | Antler Alchemy, Herbs, Warrior
Herbal Warrior of the Light
10 years ago I stepped into Tai Sophia, which was only minutes from where I grew up and I never knew existed. I was there to drink and mingle for a young professional network meeting. As a lover of bookstores and libraries I was blown away by the available books on plants and esoteric materials and the concept that one could get a masters in herbalism. In that moment I KNEW herbalism is my destiny.
Growing up my parents wanted me to grow up to be a professional, have a budding career, and live the American dream. I came home and told my mother that my new path is being an herbalist, even though I was a dedicated accountant already for 3 years, graduated with a bachelors in business, and was thriving in my field. However, I was unhappy at a desk and it made sense that I wanted to be with the plants for the rest of my life. My mother said, “Oh, you are the medicine woman in the family.” Quite frankly, I was outraged that I didn’t know this was a thing for our family and wondered why I had to wait 24 years to know AND that type of education existed only minutes from where I grew up.
However as most journeys in life, sometimes we have to travel far and outside of our nature to return to where we belong. This brings appreciation for what we are to become and an insatiable drive that demands that we live out our destiny. I began every day dreaming, exposing myself to plants, and figuring out ways I could make this destiny a reality. 6 years later I was finally in school for herbalism and found myself on our retreat in the mountains of Georgia, where my ancestors lived. I was not there to be with them but at the same time, I was there to be re-united with my soul.
I came across a book called the Warrior of the Light by Paulo Coelho and I felt once again that undeniable truth that comes and smacks you in the face and you laugh at all the ways you were before that moment. I came face to face with destiny again. I wrote a poem and a whole post about how this changed my life that you can read here, but this is a different story.
Photo of Red Woods by April Rameé
WHAT PATH WILL YOU CHOOSE?
This is a story about NOW, 10 years after the dream and now living the dream. I have spent the past days releasing energies and ways I was before that no longer serve this paradigm. The thing is, I am not regretful of any of the past, in fact quite the opposite. I am in deep gratitude for all the people who have pushed against my boundaries for these enlightened patterns I was living. Patterns that only de-valued the importance of what I have to offer. Patterns that help me live in fear rather than rise up to continue to live fully on my path of destiny. How many of us let this happen every day?
I give gratitude for all that I have learned because each person and failure in life came at that perfect moment to help me grow, to give me a challenge to rise above, and a reason to evolve. I am so grateful for the continued support of the plants, family, and friends in this healing journey for the past 12 years of awakening. I do not think the awakening ever ends. It is a life long path.
I am here as a testament of the path of the warrior. This is a path of true determination to show up for oneself and bring the change you want in the world. I am here to partner with you to make this lifetime the best possible for you and to see that every challenge is another opportunity to be in deep gratitude.
This year I am embarking upon two major chances for you to study with me after the many years of dedication and hard work I have put into my life. I want to share with you the knowledge that has led me to this point of gratitude. It is time for us to work together to make a difference in the world because the world NEEDS the best version of you and the plants are here for you.
The plants are here to be your guides and teachers. I am only a humble messenger of their potency and life force. I am a humble testament to the way the plants can shift your world, create healing, and support you in every endeavor in your life. I am here to let you know they love you!!!
Let me guide you into understanding how to create a relationship with the plants. This way you can begin your herbal education with the foundation to continue to learn for the rest of your life. The plants want you to connect with them. If you have a connection with them already, they are waiting for you to dive deeper into this divine relationship.
In the online herbal apprenticeship, we will dive in together as a small unit into the foundation of building a lasting relationship with the plants. Each week we will go deep into scientific knowledge and also esoteric understanding of the messages of the plants. As a small group, the class is LIVE, DIRECT, and TAILORED to you! There is time for working with plants that interest you, dreaming with the plants, and focusing on your individual desires of knowing about the plants. There are opportunities if you live in the DC area or nearby to work in the garden to have hands on experience guided by me, but let’s be honest…the plants will do the educating.
The herbalism 101 apprenticeship at Common Good Farm is another opportunity for similar learning but in person. There is a focus on learning how to form a relationship with the plants while learning at the garden and having a shorter time commitment.
Contact me by email or phone. I can skype and discuss in details more of the programs. I am so passionate about these learning opportunities that I could go on and on but who would want to read all of that?
So send me an email, click below to apply, or give me a call! I want to hear about your journey with the plants, I want to be here to share with you mine, and I want to be here to talk about the simple gift we are given every day for free…the plants!
I leave you now with wisdom of Paulo Coelho about being a Warrior of the Light; for what are you except a warrior of your own path?
by April Rameé | Jan 24, 2018 | Antler Alchemy, Herbs
Innately we all know that Earth and Universe has a rhythm, order, an intelligence. We know this from the sun rising every day and setting, the moon going through the phases, rise and fall of the tides, the seasons, a woman’s monthly moon, and the list goes on and on of rhythmic cycles in our own bodies, earth, and the universe.
The plants, mushrooms, and bacteria all have an intelligence billions of years old, older than our own existence. They provide us with the knowledge of how to adapt, heal, and work as communities to be healthy, one with earth, and the universe.
As a collective the plants are waiting for us to remember those rhythms and remember that we are entirely made up of the bacteria, plants, and the earth. That we are ready to learn their purpose and how to communicate their language once again.
Photo of Hawthorn Berries plump in the snow covered carter lake in Oregon
I find that I do not need to always be in a state of dis-ease before I can turn to the plants for support. In fact the moment I feel any disharmony I turn to the plants to find my balance. I find ways to understand their language and hear their messages in dreams, meditations, and by ingesting their inspiring medicine.
In my continued education, for any teacher of herbs will tell you they are a life time student, of the plants I am always opening myself up to a new plant or old friend that invites me into a deeper relationship.
This year in 2018, there are opportunities to gain a better relationship with plants by learning with me online or in person. Look below for the workshops, classes, 12 week online course, 8 week in person course, and more! The calendar on the website is going to be released soon but the events are growing! Subscribe for updates at www.antleralchemy.com
Illuminated by the Intelligence of Earth,
April Rameé
Founder of Antler Alchemy
by April Rameé | Dec 29, 2017 | Antler Alchemy, Herbs, Love, Plants
The adventure of life takes me on so many twists and turns, dips and rises. I turn 34 today in quite an uneventful way, which after many of years being alive with eventful birthdays, that could be a positive (so my dad says). However, I rarely do anything uneventful. In the spirit of my birthday, I share some raw feels in my soul today and the herbs assisting my healing as I look forward to the New Year.
A dear soul I met in Oregon told me once, “Write your life like it is a story and you are a character.” What would I say? I am unsure, as I write this from a free-write process and my story telling through writing is still new. Let’s see where this story goes…
Poetically gleaming out into the world, her eyes are wide as a deer taking in all the beautiful sights and amazing people. The world seems to be a prosperous, joyous place of those who want to be happy. However, mistakes are always made and she feels the weight of mistake after mistake piling upon her heart. The joy is starting to fade and the world seems dim. She looks around and wonders why so many people are here to only gain something, achieve some goal, and look out for their best interest. She wonders…how is she thinking only about herself? Can she reflect a different truth in her work and daily life? She calls her father and mother for advice, because they taught her how to be a woman in this world. Her father says that she is too trusting and even her mother echoes this same sentiment to her, “Why do you trust people so easily? Why do you give away so much of yourself without anyone proving they deserve what you have to offer?”
She doesn’t know why. WHY? Why does her heart urn to be trusting? Why does her heart urn to be surrounded by genuine, trustworthy people, but seems to find those who realize they can take advantage of her?
Rather than stay in a victim mode, she focuses on why she attracts such energy. Where does she hold herself a victim? Where does she hold a sense of lack of self worth? What can she do as a person believing in honesty, trust, and kindness to attract the same beings who genuinely posses these qualities?
FORGIVENESS
She starts to forgive herself for all the mistakes, the people she allowed to come in and control her life. She forgives herself for not being able to hold her boundaries as the fences come tumbling down when the hearts and desires of others bulldoze through. She forgives herself for breaking down her boundaries as this causes pain for those she loves and most importantly herself. She forgives herself that sometimes she is unable to be mean and say no. She forgives herself when she is mean and says no. She forgives herself for wanting life a specific way. She forgives herself for being focused and determined She forgives herself that she ALLOWS herself to feel guilty when others attack her for standing her ground or owning something she worked hard for. She forgives herself for being mean when she finally reinstates a boundary. She forgives herself for taking advantage of others in situations. She forgives herself for selfish behaviors. She forgives herself for not always seeing those who are supporting her. She forgives and forgives because she realizes to attract those who are like her she must forgive herself for forgetting to give herself the love she deserves on the most subtle, unconscious levels.
She realizes that she doesn’t have to forgive those harming her, she only must forgive herself because let’s face it…that is where the anger and hurt comes from. It comes from disappointing herself because she could be better, stronger, bitchier, and sturdier in her boundaries. Her fence could be a fortress and the people that deserve to be there will see there is a door to knock on gently, consistently, and with gratitude for her existence. While those who do not deserve to be inside see only a cold hard exterior, to their detriment because they are unable to see a door of kindness.
Wow! I don’t know what type of story that is, but I am going to be raw here and not edit. I write this to share authentically where I am in the world, I am not down and I am not up. I am here, present in the current moment with joy for being in this body. Understanding there is a purpose to all that happens, to learn, to lean in deep and see the true self. No one is perfect, I am not an angel and I am sure I have hurt others. I am reaping the consequences that come from my actions. They are not bad and not good, it is just what it is, a lesson to help me create vitality in my life. Seems as though the purpose is to wake me up to the joy of life! The interesting thing about it all is I think we could all benefit from some more forgiveness of ourselves.
Thank goddess for the plants that support me! My current go to tea is doing wonders for my heart, processing, and forgiving myself. This is the best birthday gift I could give myself today. Drinking good tea, taking a sweet bath, and honor the divine within myself. 34 years alive feels raw, beautiful, prosperous, magical, and forgiving.
Photo of Tea Honeysuckle (top left), Hawthorn Leaf & Flower (top right) Linden Leaf & Flower (bottom)
Herbs in my current tea: honeysuckle, hawthorn leaf & flower, and linden leaf & flower. I added some extra honeysuckle flower essence my girlfriend gifted me to the tea as well.
Honeysuckle is that sweet bushy plant you might walk by in the summertime and as a kid picked the ends of the flower to extract the tiny drop of honey it provides. This herb is great for respiratory problems and has a calming effect on the nervous system. The flower essence is great for those who are glorifying the past; find it hard to move on over the loss of a loved one, particularly if they are elderly. Good for those who get stuck in regretful feelings about the past, about missed opportunities or unhappy occurrences or about growing old. Honeysuckle helps bring people in the present and let go of the past, or bring it into perspective so that they can benefit from lessons learned from experience.
Hawthorn Leaf and Flower is a well-known heart tonic that is wonderful for high blood pressure, pain in the heart area, and other heart conditions. The flowers and leaves have a relaxant effect to relieve stress and anxiety, inducing sleep in insomniacs. Emotionally hawthorn is to work on the heart chakra, opens the heart to both receiving and giving love, and healing broken hearts.
Linden Leaf and Flower is relaxing remedy when taken as a tea to relieve tension, anxiety, aids in sleep, great for conditions associated with tension including headaches, irritability, and depression. It is another plant associated with the heart for high blood pressure and relaxing the coronary arteries, easing palpitations. Emotionally the plant is closely related with healing matters of the heart and is a symbol of sweetness, peace, and happiness. Increases awareness of our connectedness.
**Herbal info. shorts are modified and restated from the wonderful Anne McIntyre**
