by April Rameé | May 6, 2018 | Antler Alchemy, Herbs, Poetry
That moment, the moment I heard the message. A whisper in my ear during meditation, a cultivated garden is harder to grow than a wild one. It clicked. My heart knew a truth I carry.
Cultivating a garden here in DC for the past 6 years is a joy and challenge. I wonder on all the reasons to do this work and why am I even dedicated to growing plants in DC. The desire of growing the garden one way and then watching how the garden decides to grow stimulates a longing to observe and learn from the land. There are the areas of the garden that need focus, demand more attention, and consistency and then there are areas that want to be left alone. I sit observing where water goes naturally and how the microclimates of the garden exist. Creating a bond with the land.
I plant the garden with care but also a sense of abandon because I never know if a plant will actually want to live there in my garden. Therefore, I plant with a sense of detachment to the outcome of the plants choice.
There is so much joy when I notice something I planted actually comes up after a year or so laying dormant — as if a period of gestation had to occur and it rises in perfect time.
Eternal Moment
by: Jan Bettes
The similes of growing a garden and my life are not lost on me. I think of the seeds I planted in the garden as a metaphor for my dreams planted. The gestation period that gives rise and fall to dreams coming to fruition. Each having their own rhythm of time, that if I observe with objectivity, I see the path before me clear on how my arrival to the present moment is based upon decisions I made up until this point. The moment of arrival blooms when all the right environmental factors exist to create birth.
And then I see it, a new plant in my garden!
Hello dear friend, I have been waiting for you to appear, I am so blessed to get to know you and understand your arrival. Whispered from my lips to the plant.
I see the soil is disturbed enough so a wild thing like me can grow now. I’ve been waiting to see this side of the garden. Interested in learning from me? The seedling replies.
Evening Primrose Seedlings
Photo by: April Rameé
A sense of how there is still a wild in the garden causes me to laugh with delight, while my own heart opens to the wild woman within — A metaphor of the ever-growing capabilities of a cultivated garden to contain wild surprises.
I am in life to discover– that wild.
See, for countless ages people have written about their garden as a representation of their body, soul, spirit, essence, and there is a reason why.
A cultivated garden does contain a certain wildness as things once forgotten appear. A sense of wild contained in the proper alignment. The element of surprise creates a sense of excitement ensuing that the reins of control can be relinquished.
I relate all these thoughts to my wild heart. The part of me that yearns to travel, discover the unknown portion of the world that has yet to be discovered by her. This wild lives inside the cultivated garden of myself in DC. A place I love and a city I cherish for the amazing people of the world I meet. The melting pot of existence in DC proves to me the harmony that can exist in the rest of the world, within my garden, and within my life. All types of species living side by side sharing the natural rhythm of the Earth. I am here to see this radiated out into the world. Not the politics, not economics, THE HEART. The heart of people who agree to accept the difference of all. I believe in us all. Big up to the wild within you.
I am ready to learn from Evening primrose (Oenothera biennis), the flower of silent love—A plant blooming at dusk into evening offering sweet messages as the sun goes down.
Pliny said, “it is an herb good as wine to make the heart merry… Of such virtue is this herb that if it be given to drink to the wildest beast that is, it will tame the same and make it gentle.”
Bring in the gentle nature to my wild heart within DC.
In the language of flowers evening primrose symbolized silent love. The flower essence is recommended for people who suffer from feeling rejected or unwanted. Such people tend to avoid close emotional contact, intimacy, and committed relationships. Evening Primrose can heal the feelings of rejection and being unlovable and enables one to be more open emotionally and to form deeper relationships.
Traditionally evening primrose was valued as an edible wild plant. The seeds were used as food by the Native Americans in Utah and Nevada and young leaves were enjoyed in salads. As a biennial in the first year it grows a fleshy root which was boiled as a nutty-tasting vegetable
I leave now with a poem that was inspired by this plant growing wild in my garden and movement through ecstatic dance in my hometown DC:
There is a place and a time where we are one.
Souls united.
Free to express, wild….
We lay as lions in a pride,
Blissful under the sun.
An ocean in the distance laps waves
of salty moist air in our direction.
There is a place and time where we are one.
Connected in passion.
Blooming as an orchid,
Suspended in the air.
Tangled roots knotted in tantric touch.
There is a place and time where we are one.
Living the expression of memories.
I miss you in this space
Haunted by your ghost in the flesh.
There is a place and time.
But not here.
by April Rameé | Mar 8, 2018 | Antler Alchemy, Love, Plants
WORTHY OF LOVE
Late night in my room with candles lit I set the evening tone I have grown familiar with recently, a sort of serenade to my soul. I stare at the candles and choose a card from a deck I was recently gifted serendipitously. This deck is focused on love, a word and concept I am not truly focused on bringing into my life at the moment, however, I am forever a romantic and optimistic on all things love so I am diving into the deck with an open mind.
I sit now choosing a new card from this deck and receive Worthiness. The card is asking me to remember that I am worthy of love. What an interesting concept that I think I understand, but do I really? I am not 100% sure I know what this means. I get it intellectually, but in my body, heart and mind do I feel worthy?
Memories of pain, trauma, shame, hurt, FEAR, and lack of worthiness play out in my mind. I don’t know if I am actually worthy, however it makes sense in my mind. YES! I AM worthy of Love. We are all worthy of love. It seems to me to be an inalienable right…right?
Worthiness Card
Since the card was pulled three days ago it permeates my thoughts at all times, every day I wonder …am I treating myself as someone worthy of love? Am I allowing love to come in my direction? Am I releasing the fear of traumatic experiences holding me back from love? Am I allowing myself to be open to love? Am I allowing the trauma and shame put on me from others stopping me from being myself? Am I whole? Am I giving MYSELF the love I deserve? Who needs love? What is my definition of love?
Most of the time I feel worthy. However, I feel shame and fear from past traumas. I carry these wounds gaping deep within my spirit that are not mended. Creating a cesspool of uncovered rotting potential of vitality. Wasted away in fear, shame, and blame.
In my dream that night I pulled the card comes a sign from the plant world. I dream of Echinacea, a plant I do not use very often because it is really more for intense blood and lymphatic conditions. It is over harvested and on the US Plant Savers at-risk list since 2014 because so many people think of it is an Immune stimulating herb only. While it does this, it is not for the little cough that people most of the time take it for, it is for deep sickness and to cleanse the blood and lymphatic system of toxins and purifying these tissues.
Echinacea growing in my yard
In my dream as I pick the plant, I hear the running sound of a deer in the woods. I turn around to stare at the deer. I notice it coming towards me at full speed with the head tilt down and antlers poised ready to ram my body and send me flying into the air, but at the last minute the antlers form around me, enveloping me into the sweetest embrace. The fear of being rammed by an animal at full speed is replaced with devotion. As if the animal is calling my soul to return to my true nature with the support of the herb. This is not any animal but the Deer, one of my spirit guides and one of the animals responsible for the name of the company, Antler Alchemy.
As if having this memorable experience in the dream was not enough, I receive a message from my friend the next day asking me to put Echinacea into a salve formula we are perfecting. This herb has been known since the Natives taught Europeans how to use it as a wound healer as well.
While this plant is not the first one I would turn to for a lesson on the heart, it is a plant to remind one how to be whole. It is for those who feel shattered by severe trauma in their lives. They may allow the energy of this trauma to be the main focus of their life, unable to move out of the space of putrid rotting in the spirit. There is a sense of learning how to forgive ourselves and others to remove stagnation within the self and spirit. There could be a sense of feeling alienated and unable to connect to the inner strength and peace. This plant is able to bring about resilience.
I find this to be a message not only for myself but also for the world. We can dwell on the traumatic experiences happening everywhere all the time or we can turn to the support of the plants to work their healing magic. This can bring us back to our inalienable rights to be a part of the community of the Earth as whole human beings, to tend to the world with reverence, and remember WE ARE WORTHY OF THE LOVE that the Earth has bestowed upon each and EVERY ONE OF US.
How do you find yourself worthy of love? Feel free to share with me!
by April Rameé | Feb 22, 2018 | Antler Alchemy, Ceremony, Fire
Three days dedicated in prayer, focus, and intention on a vision I had months ago during my last last vision quest. I saw myself as a fire keeper, tending the fire, hauling fire wood, splitting wood, and creating a space of sacred prayer through the purification of the flames. The vision included others around the fire releasing their prayers, the Sacred Seeds Portal, and wholistic integration of ancient wisdom with herbal medicine.
This vision is now fueled by a prayer of a new Native American inspired smudge fan. Prayer fans are used to smudge with cedar, sage, sweetgrass, copal, and many another beautiful cleansing scents. The fan is used to infuse every day with prayer and has healing powers to dispatch a prayer into the heavens and draw the healing power from the sky.
In this moment I am drawing down the vision of continuing my learning and study on being a fire keepers. I know so little but have learned so much from the fire since a little girl tending fire in my house. I learned how to build a fire by the time I was 7years old. Every day and night in winter it was part of my task to keep the fire burning in my home and now I am returning to this vision.
Photo of Native Prayer Fan by April Rameé
In my current studies, I have learned the importance of having a fire fan to fan the flames. I look forward to fanning many fires with this new tool I made out of geese feathers and parrot feathers all that were gifted to me from my community who supports me more than I could ever imagine. The geese represents community and the family unit, making them a priority with a vision and the parrot represents understanding all sides of life and being a good mediator. I think these are good traits for a community fire keeper of purification.
We are all built upon our ancestors and the company we keep. Look around and take a moment to give gratitude for those who support you, your ancestors who worked hard to make sure you are here, and for the earth who gives so many gifts for free, asking only in return that you remember their power.
Here is to the expanding knowledge of the fire I have tended within my heart, performing with fire, and for the community since I can remember. Here is to returning to the learning with a beginners mind, humble, and reverent to the element of fire.
by April Rameé | Feb 15, 2018 | Antler Alchemy, Herbs, Warrior
Herbal Warrior of the Light
10 years ago I stepped into Tai Sophia, which was only minutes from where I grew up and I never knew existed. I was there to drink and mingle for a young professional network meeting. As a lover of bookstores and libraries I was blown away by the available books on plants and esoteric materials and the concept that one could get a masters in herbalism. In that moment I KNEW herbalism is my destiny.
Growing up my parents wanted me to grow up to be a professional, have a budding career, and live the American dream. I came home and told my mother that my new path is being an herbalist, even though I was a dedicated accountant already for 3 years, graduated with a bachelors in business, and was thriving in my field. However, I was unhappy at a desk and it made sense that I wanted to be with the plants for the rest of my life. My mother said, “Oh, you are the medicine woman in the family.” Quite frankly, I was outraged that I didn’t know this was a thing for our family and wondered why I had to wait 24 years to know AND that type of education existed only minutes from where I grew up.
However as most journeys in life, sometimes we have to travel far and outside of our nature to return to where we belong. This brings appreciation for what we are to become and an insatiable drive that demands that we live out our destiny. I began every day dreaming, exposing myself to plants, and figuring out ways I could make this destiny a reality. 6 years later I was finally in school for herbalism and found myself on our retreat in the mountains of Georgia, where my ancestors lived. I was not there to be with them but at the same time, I was there to be re-united with my soul.
I came across a book called the Warrior of the Light by Paulo Coelho and I felt once again that undeniable truth that comes and smacks you in the face and you laugh at all the ways you were before that moment. I came face to face with destiny again. I wrote a poem and a whole post about how this changed my life that you can read here, but this is a different story.
Photo of Red Woods by April Rameé
WHAT PATH WILL YOU CHOOSE?
This is a story about NOW, 10 years after the dream and now living the dream. I have spent the past days releasing energies and ways I was before that no longer serve this paradigm. The thing is, I am not regretful of any of the past, in fact quite the opposite. I am in deep gratitude for all the people who have pushed against my boundaries for these enlightened patterns I was living. Patterns that only de-valued the importance of what I have to offer. Patterns that help me live in fear rather than rise up to continue to live fully on my path of destiny. How many of us let this happen every day?
I give gratitude for all that I have learned because each person and failure in life came at that perfect moment to help me grow, to give me a challenge to rise above, and a reason to evolve. I am so grateful for the continued support of the plants, family, and friends in this healing journey for the past 12 years of awakening. I do not think the awakening ever ends. It is a life long path.
I am here as a testament of the path of the warrior. This is a path of true determination to show up for oneself and bring the change you want in the world. I am here to partner with you to make this lifetime the best possible for you and to see that every challenge is another opportunity to be in deep gratitude.
This year I am embarking upon two major chances for you to study with me after the many years of dedication and hard work I have put into my life. I want to share with you the knowledge that has led me to this point of gratitude. It is time for us to work together to make a difference in the world because the world NEEDS the best version of you and the plants are here for you.
The plants are here to be your guides and teachers. I am only a humble messenger of their potency and life force. I am a humble testament to the way the plants can shift your world, create healing, and support you in every endeavor in your life. I am here to let you know they love you!!!
Let me guide you into understanding how to create a relationship with the plants. This way you can begin your herbal education with the foundation to continue to learn for the rest of your life. The plants want you to connect with them. If you have a connection with them already, they are waiting for you to dive deeper into this divine relationship.
In the online herbal apprenticeship, we will dive in together as a small unit into the foundation of building a lasting relationship with the plants. Each week we will go deep into scientific knowledge and also esoteric understanding of the messages of the plants. As a small group, the class is LIVE, DIRECT, and TAILORED to you! There is time for working with plants that interest you, dreaming with the plants, and focusing on your individual desires of knowing about the plants. There are opportunities if you live in the DC area or nearby to work in the garden to have hands on experience guided by me, but let’s be honest…the plants will do the educating.
The herbalism 101 apprenticeship at Common Good Farm is another opportunity for similar learning but in person. There is a focus on learning how to form a relationship with the plants while learning at the garden and having a shorter time commitment.
Contact me by email or phone. I can skype and discuss in details more of the programs. I am so passionate about these learning opportunities that I could go on and on but who would want to read all of that?
So send me an email, click below to apply, or give me a call! I want to hear about your journey with the plants, I want to be here to share with you mine, and I want to be here to talk about the simple gift we are given every day for free…the plants!
I leave you now with wisdom of Paulo Coelho about being a Warrior of the Light; for what are you except a warrior of your own path?
by April Rameé | Jan 24, 2018 | Antler Alchemy, Herbs
Innately we all know that Earth and Universe has a rhythm, order, an intelligence. We know this from the sun rising every day and setting, the moon going through the phases, rise and fall of the tides, the seasons, a woman’s monthly moon, and the list goes on and on of rhythmic cycles in our own bodies, earth, and the universe.
The plants, mushrooms, and bacteria all have an intelligence billions of years old, older than our own existence. They provide us with the knowledge of how to adapt, heal, and work as communities to be healthy, one with earth, and the universe.
As a collective the plants are waiting for us to remember those rhythms and remember that we are entirely made up of the bacteria, plants, and the earth. That we are ready to learn their purpose and how to communicate their language once again.
Photo of Hawthorn Berries plump in the snow covered carter lake in Oregon
I find that I do not need to always be in a state of dis-ease before I can turn to the plants for support. In fact the moment I feel any disharmony I turn to the plants to find my balance. I find ways to understand their language and hear their messages in dreams, meditations, and by ingesting their inspiring medicine.
In my continued education, for any teacher of herbs will tell you they are a life time student, of the plants I am always opening myself up to a new plant or old friend that invites me into a deeper relationship.
This year in 2018, there are opportunities to gain a better relationship with plants by learning with me online or in person. Look below for the workshops, classes, 12 week online course, 8 week in person course, and more! The calendar on the website is going to be released soon but the events are growing! Subscribe for updates at www.antleralchemy.com
Illuminated by the Intelligence of Earth,
April Rameé
Founder of Antler Alchemy
